A lot has gone on in the past month. I’m not sure if this post is going to be breaking down all that has been happening or detailing my breakdown that I seem on the verge of having.
I’m on my 2nd week at a new job. I’m working with and for some people I previously worked with and I’m very happy about that. Overall the environment seems way more positive than the one I was in. But I came on board to find out during the first week that my manager wasn’t really my manager. There was a director role missing so he really is supposed to be my boss’ boss. Then I find out that my faux manager is going to leave this current team to manage a different team in the company. My new REAL manager starts at the end of the month and they are looking for a new leader also. And THEN I find out that the lead person (again interviewed with him) is leaving after my first week. And 2 other people from a team of 6 are done in early August. What. The. Fuck.
That leaves 3 people left on team that are staying. And none of them know diddly shit. I’m supposed to greet my new boss and orient him…after only having been here 3 weeks myself.
Beyond the people/staffing clusterfuck there are a lot of different moving pieces. And acronyms. And I don’t have the right access yet.
To say I feel overwhelmed is a complete understatement. Our stuff is utilized by the whole company and I’ve been terrified something is going to stop working and our team will have no clue how to fix it. Today I wanted to cry but it’s kinda hard to have a good solid cry in those new collaborative work environments where you have zero privacy. I held back the tears, only because I didn’t want someone to see me cry and label me as the new person…who is unstable.
There’s more to report but I need to take a deep breath and head back to the office to have more shit dumped in my lap. BRB – fighting back another round of tears.
My husband is one of those people that grew up knowing what he wanted to do for a career and sometimes I’m envious of that. I turned 39 last month and I still am asking myself the question, “What do I want to be when I grow up?” I’m sure I’m not alone, because I believe my husband is the exception, not the rule. Most people don’t know, or are stuck in a job that they don’t love. Or even like.
I have found myself in jobs I don’t absolutely love for the past few years. It’s been frustrating to say the least. My current job, while I love the customers I deal with, my boss and teammates have been awful. The shit that has come out of their mouths has left me appalled and feeling alone. Very alone. Recently a colleague said she was concerned I was raising the bar for everyone else in our department by providing a customer with a thorough well-written piece of documentation. She even sent an email to our entire team saying she wasn’t going to provide that to her customers. I shit you not. I personally believe that job security doesn’t exist any longer, but I am a firm believe that providing exceptional customer service to your customers helps you tremendously.
How do you find somewhere that matches your kind of crazy? How do you even try to weed out places while job hunting and interviewing? How in the fuck do you figure out what you want to be when you grow up?
I feel so lost in this arena. My husband has made suggestions but some don’t feel right. I’ve been selectively applying to jobs that pique my interest. Just figuring out how to cope with fuckwits at work in the meantime.
If you have ideas I’m open to them.
In an attempt to engage the team (?) today, a colleague sent out an email of a video. It was from a motion activated camera from her property of a coyote taking a dead squirrel off camera. This resulted in a flurry of responses from our team including our manager who said: “Well, you leave us the mystery of how the squirrel died…”. Ordinarily most of our team doesn’t interact with one another but apparently dead animals is a uniter!!!!!
What in the actual fuck. What. The. Fuck. Is this really my life?!?
I wish I was making this up.
I believe this helps to explain exactly why I’m currently looking for a new job.
Don’t believe me? I took a pic from the video.
I’m done for the day. Dunno how you top a coyote and a dead squirrel.